Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Waiting on the New Addition

We are excitedly waiting on baby #4 to get here.  Being as our due date is tomorrow, I am very nervous about how this whole thing is to go down.  Will the baby come on time for once?  or Will it be another when I am ready baby like the other 3 were and make me wait even longer?  Well all I know is that the time will be perfect on the day and time that is just right for this baby.  Although I have joked with everyone that I am completely fine with going over due for at least 7 days so that our busy schedule can calm down and get #1 kindergarten assessment out of the way before I have to go to the hospital.  So I am probably one of the only pregnant women that you will meet saying hey I am cool with going over due and actually I prefer it. 

I can't wait to know if its a boy or a girl.  We have names and outfits picked out for both genders.  #2 says he wants a brother that has red hair just like him.  I wish it was that easy to order up what you want.  I keep telling him that we will be happy with a brother or a sister, whichever God has decided to give us.  He still insist that its a brother, we will see in just a little while. 

I think the craziest thing about the whole ordeal is that although I have been through labor 3 times I am still nervous about doing it again.  Will I make it to the hospital on time?  Will it be as easy as the other ones? Now don't get me wrong, labor is hard work, but we have been very fortunate to know what the natural process looks like and be able to allow my body to do what it was made to do without any interventions from the medical team.  I just pray and trust that God will deliver us both safely so that we continue to have a healthy family.  

Saturday, June 16, 2012

Making Memories and Reliving Them

There are so many times we talk about making memories and then we don't think about them until later in life.  I am really missing my Grammy today and miss having the convenience of calling the high school and hearing her say "Vinton County High School."  But there are so many wonderful memories that I have of her and want to hold on to that keep flooding back to me right now.  I am ever grateful to my dear husband for my last trip to Myrtle Beach with my Gram.  Even though it was not the most action packed trip of shopping or building sandcastles, its still a vacation that will forever mean the world to me.  Getting to have a week with my Gram just sitting beside her, talking with her, and helping out in anyway she needed was very conforting to me.  The last several years have been very hard because life has taken over and lessend the time to spend with extended family.  But just sitting there on the balcony watching the ocean brought back so many times of the two of us sitting at the mall or on a curb people watching.  Yes I miss my Gram dearly but am also rejoicing in the fact that she is no longet in pain from the cancer that overtook her body.  She is know resting in the arms of our Lord and Savior pain free and happy.  I know that I will one day get to see her again and this is the one thing that keeps me from crying everytime I think of her.

So kids what I want to tell you from this experiecnce that I have been working through over the last several months is don't wait until its to late to pick up the phone and say "Hey I am thinking of you and want you to know I love you."  Dont just think that you will forever have the people who have been there all your life.  Cherish each day, think about the things you have done together and why they are such loved memories.  Share with those people some of your favorite times together so they know how much those times mean to you.  Don't wait until they are no longet her to walk down memory lane with, but take a stoll together now.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Changes...

So many things have been happening in our lives that I just can't keep up with it all.  Now that I am 16 weeks along with #4 I have been feeling like my old self and actually able to eat some stuff without forcing it down.  I have been wanting to write down many times the things that have been taking place since my last post. SO if your reading this its just strictly for memories to the kids so I won't forget when they are adults themselves.

#2 told me the other day that he thinks "there is a boy baby in your belly" and #1 responds "well I agree its either a boy or a girl, isn't that right mom?"  All I could do was smile and say "yup that's right its one or the other"

#1 is always dancing and putting on a show.  She wants to do Irish dance and I really hope we can get her signed up soon.  She even said she would dance instead of play ball.  I love that she knows what she wants to do.  We have also made an appointment for the meet and great with the Kindergarten for next month.  She is really wanting to go to school instead of homeschooling and I have really prayed about it and feel that God is leading us in that direction to protect our mother/daughter relationship.  I am not very patient at times with her and do not want to make learning a chore for her.  I want her to love learning just as much as I did in school and also have an excellent relationship with me.  So we will check it out and see.  I'm excited about the fact that the kindergartners only go half a day and so we will start slow and see how it goes. 

#2 is all boy! He is a football nut and is all the time wanting to play ball and tackle you.  I have told him a number of times that he cannot put #3 in a headlock to get his toy back.  OH! BOY!  I love having a boy and seeing how different it is from my 4 nieces and my 2 daughters.  I feel that he is going to be a very big sports player and loves anything that has a ball involved.  Its great that even thought he is a sports fanatic he still loves to cuddle with Mom or Meme and is always there to respond with sympathy when someone is upset or hurt.  I know that he is going to grow up to be a wonderful man.

#3 well she is a whole different story.   She is always the first one to start singing and dancing when a song comes on its so cute!  She is my climber and loves to run around without anything on.  Just this weekend she learned to climb out of the pack-n-play and when we got home from Meme's the first thing she does is climb out of her crib.  She isn't going to be 2 until June I thought surely we could wait until then to learn this skill, but nope all of my kids have done things early and #3 will not have it any other way then doing things for herself.  She is very strong willed and loves to get her way.  Her favorite thing to say is no but it comes out ugh-ugh.  LOL!  Man does she have this down.  But as we are consistently not allowing her to get away with having tantrums she is really doing well and learning that she needs to follow the rules.


As for myself I am still learning how to manage and allowing God to teach me daily what I can do to lead my children to Him.  I know that I am not perfect but do hope that I can build a trusting relationship with my kids that will allow them to feel security in our home and know that whatever happens we are always hear for them.  I wish I could be super mom and do it all, but I will cherish everything that I can do and pray that God places people in our lives that fill the gaps that are there.  With each passing moment I want to take in the memories of our children and remember that they are just that children! I want to take the time to sit and read books with them, let them help me clean even if it will take an extra 30 minutes to do it, or even bake food with the possibility that it wouldn't look as tasty if I had done it on my own.  These are all things that will build memories and I want to allow them to be a part of my life in every way.