I have to say that Elizabeth S. (you know who you are) has completely rocked my world, along Erin B.'s this week with one simple but complex statement. "Who are we to say no thank you God, I don't want that blessing." Okay so a little bit of back information, we were talking about not having anymore kids after this baby was born. Although we feel that we do not want to have any permanent procedures done, we had talked about this being our last baby. #4 rounding us out nicely into an even family. Well when discussing this at our Mom's study the other day Elizabeth said that we are always quick to jump in and take all of the blessings in the form of financial or other worldly types but always quick to stop accepting the blessings of children when we feel that enough is enough. This so doesn't make the impact the way the conversation did, but I have really been pondering this and wanted to write it down.
So my thoughts are although it is not in my plans to have a multiple number of children or as I stated to Elizabeth, "as long as I don't have 8." I have decided that this is completely up to God. I have known many women who have had several kids and tried for years afterwards to get pregnant again without having any luck. I also know many people who have had "the procedure" done and still ended up having another baby. So it doesn't matter what we want it is what God wants and how we decided to accept the situation. If we humble ourselves and let God have complete control, our family will be perfectly complete when He says that it is.
So as I am sitting here with a screaming #3 clinging to my leg and nausea setting in from #4, I am saying that God's will be done. My prayer is that I can continue to keep my focus in the right direction and not keep looking at my own self desires. I am blessed to be a stay at home momma and I know that what I am doing is raising blessings that were sent to us from Heaven.
Each child that we raise is given to us as a gift. We get to pick where we live, what job we do, what type of house or car to buy, but God is the one who chooses what children we are to raise. Betsy Corning stated this in a study that I took 5 years ago before #1 was born and I have heard it again just in the last few months, its true and is a message that I hold very dear to my heart.
Oh, and after typing this up I talked with Erin and she stated that Elizabeth continued the impact at church yesterday by stating that our children are the only thing we get to take to Heaven with us. If we raise them right and train them up in the way they should go then we will get to be in Heaven with them. WOW! Thanks Elizabeth for your wisdom. You are an amazing person and I love your Godly insight.
